It is now 5 p.m. and I just came home from the doctors with my husband. I also see that it has been 5 days since I last wrote anything on my blog. Oh my... but to be honest, It was all I could do to stay focused and together the last three days. I have had an emotionally trying and draining week, trying to keep it together emotionally. I had my moments, had a good cry, of which I believe brings a good release to the heart of pent up feelings and emotions. It does a heart really good:>) Along with writing your feelings out and tearing them up, burning them and releasing them.
It helps to move through a situation at hand, however, sometimes if you can't, if one is willing, like I have been all my life, it may take years, and years, and years in a particular area in order to have a break through or healing. Sometimes I think my issue will never end, or that I won't be healed! It is a wound that keeps coming back time and time again. No matter how deep I dig to release this from my being, it's still there! It haunts me like a ghost! And then, suddenly, I am lead to someone eles or lead towards a whole new direction and action in my life to take. All I find I need to have is an open mind:>))))))))))) and a willingness that never quits!!!!!
One of the on-going challenges I've been experiencing has physically gone on for the last 35 years. I don't like to talk about this much, because I've worked on it for so long-. I am hear to tell you that I am still alive and ticking and getting to the root cause. I have learned to cope and accept my allergies to all the different food I have. I will continue on, because I must! I will seek more, and research more, and reach out to those Doctors who I think might be able to help further! You see, in the last 5 years my body has been reacting violently to foods and not getting the nutrient to what I eat.
I have been working with the best Naturopathic Doctor's around. And Monday, I will be going to see a new Homeopathic Doctor. These challenges have been far more heart wrenching than my Cerebral Palsy and Learning Disability. When I begin to think about this for a minute, it is very painful, it is more painful, and up there emotionally with fighting for my life and my education with my Civil Rights Case , or trying to prove to the world that I am a capable person in doing anything I put my mind towards doing!
But I will survive and get through this just like everything else! I will! I really will!
Now that I have spilled my guts...I will close; as I must prepare my dinner.
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