Glimmers of Hope that Inspire and Empower our Lives!!

Getting Around A System That Doesn't Work

Dear Readers, how awful is this! I got to thinking today how "every" aspect of a disabled or special needs person's life is scrutinized by "Helpful Experts" who assume God like powers over our goals, our dreams, our thoughts, our abilities, including our wishes to have a livelihood of our own.  How dear they step in front of us and block the way of our natural flow.  Everything from a career choice, to how we put on our shoes and socks.  Better yet, how we even go to the bathroom, is subject to morbid interest and thorough examination. It is critical, meticulous and malicious. Yet, they seem to pull it off.

Our genuine desires as human beings, to led happy, productive lives is intensionally disregarded as they fail to consider our expression of success and happiness.  We are never really taken into real consideration.  Even if we have some kind of challenge, as a disabled person, our desires to attain our goals or degrees, aught to be recognized and respected.  Even if it is just going into work.  It would be a joy to have a say so in our destination which society pays no attention or heed to. 

This infuriates me to no end, as time, and time, and time again, I have strived, and attempted, and fought for every ounce and every bloody achievement that I have made today.  These years of fighting with a system that does not see us as worthy to listen to, have indeed left their scars. 

If only our struggles were given the same importance as other suppressed people, it would make life a whole lot easier.  Instead, precious years have been frittered and thrown away, down right wasted, trying to get around artificial barrier's of the worst kind.  My dear friends, this struggle is often hidden from people who do not experience it directly, but is no less real.

If I can bring this idea into your heart's and minds then my life long work and struggle has been worth the while.

What we go though as Disabled People

The hardest part about having a disability is that no one really take us seriously.  It is like pulling teeth to be heard as we wish to be heared, and taken into consideration and regarded like the rest of the world. Too many times, we as "disabLED individuals" are payed no attention too, ignored, over-looked, and "be programed" to being nice little individuals, which turn into Convienent robots. This being, because they fear we will loose control and embarress them.  Thus, we who have Cerebral Palsy, a learning disability of Dyslexia, and or any other type of disability are; tossed a bone to keep us pacified, and are patronized, and are regarded as a problem, rather than a asset to our world and our community. 

We too often are looked down upon rather than regarded as someone with importance, worth, or value and worthy of attention.  We are plighted beyond words because it is easier to ignore our abiLITIes to focus on  details.  Time and time again I have been aware of others viewing me as a helpless, victim, and not the intelligent, confident person, that I am.  We find acceptance from the public and professionals when we are cute little children, and are not a threat to society.  But we grow up, have a mind of our own, and desires to fill, that acceptance immideately fades away into nothingness! 

Outcome

I do not know what will come of all the letter's I've sent out in the last couple of days to promote myself, and my abilities as a public speaker- but what ever it is, I know that I did not sit back on my tush doing nothing!  I know I have moved forward. I know I have put myself and my abilities out there on the line.  I know way down deep, within myself, that I have gone beyond and taken all the action I know how to take-  I have done my part in thought, spirit and deed- and, there is NO WAY that I am going to stop reaching for that dream of mine! I am going to achieve, and conquer, and keep moving forward to reach MY mountain top, and make it happen for myself.  Some how, some way it will be reveled to me!  Just like everything else in my life...  I just hope it does not take forever!  I see many disabled speakers out there.  But none who have gone thought what I have with Cerebral Palsy and a learning disability, nor fighting for my life. And they are out there speaking and making a living for themselves.  So why CAN'T I!!!!  I'll be very honest with myself, dear blog, It would be very, very sweet if someone recognized my true gift and what I have to give to other people and our world to make this a better place for all. It would be a dream come true!  It would be the pinnacle of pinnacles, after all the experiences I've gone through.

Determined

I will make this happen for myself too- just like everything else in my life-  I am as determined as determined can be to move forward with anticipation and recognition with my public speaking career.  And even though I have shared and spoken before, many a times, and filled many a rooms with encouragement, hope and empowerment I will keep on keeping on till that someone sees and recognizes my potential and what I have to give to the world.